vicious circle

you were 
cold 
cold and glossy


i crawled 
i crawled in
pale 
pale and disgruntled


together we planned
alone you fought 
victory was ours
deal was closed
your tiresome eyes
my selfish habit
blinded by greed


dropped you                                  
poured bourbon over                                               

Sipped 
Savored
i watched you 
watched you melt
i  watched you meltdown

you were  gone

i felt cheery

i crawled 
i crawled out.

i am on my way
leaving you behind
guilt is growing 
am tangled up
in this circle
a bloody vicious circle